Driving record
Friday, November 05, 2010
endofstory?
-4:01 AM
speechless to have known what happen.. fated to have seen it.. u destroyed my life..
with the last eye contact we made, we bade a silent farewell..
girls should like paikuas like me? ♥
Wednesday, November 03, 2010
=(?
-3:46 AM
i miss u alot yap in ping =(
girls should like paikuas like me? ♥
Sunday, October 17, 2010
bish?
-5:25 AM
yo all.. back for this week blog post.. hmm i yo for wat? there is no one reading my blog anyway.. lol~ anyway just came back from movie with xiang, daryl, pingzhi and huang.. went to watch Takers.. some kind of show abt a group of friends who are damn good at robbing and end up betraying each other.. not bad.. 3.5/5 for me =)
she wouldn't answer me call nor reply my message.. saw her blog offspring qn. she replied to some person asking if she would wait for her ex and she ask which ex.. which means she is waiting for one of her ex.. however her next qn which was asking her to smile becos she deserve someone better, she replied saying yes she deserve someone way better.. so it must be that jake again ba.. good luck yap inping..
it was like a stick piercing through my heart when i saw that.. guess she really thinks she deserve someone better and that i should fk off from her life ba.. haiz.. fine fine.. benedict tan yow khiang.. stop being a crybaby for a girl who lost her feelings for you.. why still wear the ring around wherever u go? why still read the letter she wrote to you during camp? why tell your mum that you are still tgt with her and that she is busy working thats why she dun have time to meet you?
i asked my friend.. if your ex go out with other guys.. u wun feel angry or sad de meh? he told me, "my mother tell my to shared my used unwanted toy with the less fortunate"
it was kinda hilarious at first.. but when i tell myself that, i couldn't.. she isnt a toy.. she is someone who i wanted to be with in my life.. my soulmate..
yap inping.. i may not have the chance to tell you this anymore.. i thank god for having u in my life.. though its only for a short period.. it was a really wonderful moment for me.. we may quarrel often, but the love we DID share has been amazing.. u may say u are the worst gf i had, but to me u are the one i loved the most.. i wish you well in ur life.. if i can i really wish i will stop messaging u.. i wish i can forget ur number.. i try my best.. take care..
girls should like paikuas like me? ♥
Saturday, October 09, 2010
=(?
-4:52 PM
we finally broke up.. i really really miss her alot.. have been smsing her.. trying to find of ways to meet her.. but she totally gave me a cold shoulder.. guess its really finally over ba.. i am sorry for whatever i have done or said.. all the best in ur future life...
guess now i have to reconfide in my blog again..
girls should like paikuas like me? ♥
Monday, January 25, 2010
happy bday januari =D?
-1:11 AM
first of all wanna wish my cousin Januari (thats her name) a very happy 21st birthday.. haha... kk basically her birthday was very boring.. most of her friends are just scattered around and will get tgt only during picture taking.. well its not my bday so who cares..
met my dear after that for her dinner.. well things did not end up too well.. guess i always hear answers which i dun wanna hear sometimes.. but since its the truth then i also have to accept it no matter wat..
somehow after some tokking we decided that if someone better do appear in our life, then we would wish the other all the best and get on with life.. its better this way ba.. at least for the time being we could still be tgt.. i just hope when this very day come, i would be mentally prepared for it..
if her knight in shining armour do come and take her away, then i do hope my princess in shining gown (k this is quite lame lol!) will be around somewhere for me.. so for the time being i shall just be that not so gd bf for her ba..
i find myself flaring up more easily nowadays.. i dunno whether issit because of the work stress, or becos i am losing more and more confidence in this rs.. in every rs i will actually treat my gf like someone i am gonna be with for life, u can ask any of them actually.. i will tok abt the future, explore possible ideas of whats gonna happen in our family lives..etc. but somehow in this rs, she makes things so realistic, that i actually start to find myself childish thinking abt all these..
but i came to a decision just now.. either this, or the next rs will actually be the last rs for me.. because i think after this rs, i would have learn enough abt life and know what my next gf who is my future wife is gonna be like.. i wun make another mistake, finding an unhappy rs and hurting each other almost every other day..
girls should like paikuas like me? ♥
Sunday, January 24, 2010
whew?
-4:43 PM
lol.. back again~ will be going to my cousin's 21st birthday celebration later.. so will keep this post kinda short.. been working for the whole of last week at adecco office.. interviewing pple, giving training, doing filing and data entry..etc. haha.. its very tiring la.. but no choice..
chinese new year is coming up.. can't wait for it to come.. house visitings, wearing nice clothes and of course! getting the red packet.. lol~ actually i am not really in need of cash.. my financial staus is quite stable at the moment.. for the first time after so long..
went to akibanana the other day to find my angie mei.. its some kind of japanese anime type of cafe.. so basically all the waitress were wearing the maid costume.. haha.. my mei was the cutest there! none others really caught my attention.. and there was this weird guy who ask me where is the gay pub when i was going home.. he say its kind of embarassing to ask around but why did he ask me then? =\
my rs is full of ups and downs.. though its mostly down la.. maybe i do ought to trust her more.. but to do that i actually will need to lessen my commitment.. just tell myself that let her do whatever she wants.. if she leaves one day means we are not meant to be.. treat everyday like a brand new day ya? =) i mean its not that i can't get another gf easily, its just that i am lazy to regrow a new r/s.. it somehow gets kinda tiring u know (-_-")
army is drawing near.. everyday i dream i am in a jungle or in a bunk.. though i forgot the rest of the parts, but i know my mind is kinda worrying abt army.. what fearsome beast am i going to meet in the jungle? what terrifying ghost will there be in the bunk? kk i know i am kinda exaggerating now.. lol! i gotta go~ peace out peeps!
girls should like paikuas like me? ♥
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
a new year a new start?
-12:30 AM
Happy belated new year everyone =D i know its already very late.. lol~ things seems to pass so fast for me recently.. i dun even rmb what happened during december.. its been so long since i last blogged.. i mean.. judging from my recent posts, i only blogged when i am unhappy.. its a good thing right? means i am happy most of the time.. haha..
too bad happiness doesn't last forever.. everyone knows that.. it only last forever in fairy tales.. i know i dun normally say such sad phrases but then its the harsh fact of reality.. the girl who i thought was the "one" for me, isn't gonna be there for me anymore..
she didn't break with me though.. u could say that i was the one who initiated it.. but close friends of mine will know it actually pains me to do so.. i dun wanna act pitiful neither do i wanna gain any of ur sympathies.. we both felt that this was the right decision and agreed on it..
anyway my financial status is not that good now anyway.. though i start to settle down with some money in the bank after i stop betting soccer and working 2 jobs at a time.. okok.. i didn't exactly stop betting.. i still sometimes (rarely i dare say) maybe bet a bit to try my luck..
being single is good in a way.. seeing couples going to restuarants to eat actually kinda stress me out.. i am still not capable of giving my gf that kinda life =P anyway i also going in army le.. what for think so much when u are army right.. thinking if ur gf is out with another guy watching movie or having belated bday treats from some other guys.. etc.
bah~ whatever! almost wanted to type girls sux for the moment *luckily controlled myself* lol! i shall not blame anyone for this failed relationship.. take it as another lesson learnt and i am still not matured enough to be in a rs.. =)
oh yah.. my phone is getting haywired again.. dunno whats wrong.. guess because i dropped it on the road this morning then it became angry with me... lol! i feel like writing new year resolutions but then, i will be spending most of my time in army.. so i guess there's no points ba..
i will never ever gonna drink pearl milk tea again!
girls should like paikuas like me? ♥
